if you know me well, you know what im talkin about by the title
LOL
and how old am i, you ask? the answer is 6. *smiles* no older, no younger.
(hey, it happens to EVERYONE!)

so R doesnt talk to me anymore. I know he misses me, he just wont say so. we always fought anyways, so i dont know why i even miss him. but oh well, i guess. Ill live either way.

me and mike attempted to clean up this room yesterday. i ended up takin a couple big hissy fits and throwin the shit all aorund. this room is always such a mess, and it NEVER stays clean, we got so much stuff and the room is so small. ive got enough clothes to dress an army and no where to put it all. i get SO fusterated with it all

(DAMN!!! -I wish i was your lover.. ) hehe

its 11:45 am. tooo earlier for me to be awake. but everyone knows what happened, hehe now i cant go back to sleep!
im gonna be sorry for it at work tonight if i dont take a nap later.

i dont have much to exciting stuff to talk about. still happily married and workin on being a good housewife
*smiles*
i actually suck. i cant cook a damn thing without burnin it or makin it too runny
or mushy or just plane out nasty. god love mike for actually eating it.

well, jenn finally flushed my fish for me, god love HER. it was some funny. the fish was rotten and we were all urgin
i almost threw up there in the kitchen
what a REEK!
and i only threw the fish bowl away today. and the book that was laid on top to keep the stink in. what a god awful stink.
poooooooie

anyways i guess that should be it for now
lol
not much more goin on besides that
take care all

pezzyann was fooled on 12:01 p.m..

so, my fish died.
once so happy, so crazy (mike even said he was teachin himself to swim backwards) and is now .. *sigh* dead
its strange, cause 10 minutes before, he was swimin like mad, and being crazy like normal (crazy little fish) and i was like, hey mike! look at how big my fish is! (gloating because hes had already died) oh! nevermind, dont look at my fish! (while trying to cover the bowl with my elbow)
damn this world! damn it!!
never again! im THROUGH with fish! through i tell ya! through!!!!
MUWAHAHAHAHAHAH <--- very evil laugh

pezzyann was fooled on 4:00 p.m..

while outside, by myself, having a cigarette, thinking, i realised one thing.
Ive got it.
ive got a decent job, money, a place to live, ive worked for everything that i have.
i have someone to come home too everymorning. everynight.
i have someone to tell me im beautiful. -i have someone who makes me believe it.
I have something that most people spend most (or all) of their lives looking for.
And he'll be home in 5 minutes.
but after all that ive done, all that ive been through, i made it. here i am, one of the luckiest people that i myself, know.
I found it.
And its mine

pezzyann was fooled on 4:47 p.m..

i know a girl her name is janice
though patsy suits her better
shes as little as a button
and cuter then ever!

(hehe)

she has long brown hair
im not sure about her eyes...
i was too busy laughin at her
to even realise (lol)

she lives away now
shacked up in some fancy "condo"
too good for us little folk
to come for a visit, yo

(couldnt make anything rhyme with condo) :-)

oh! little tiny patsy
sippin on her beer
sittin quietly on the couch
you can hardly see her there

washin dishes with her nipples out
letting sheldon get a peek
sleepin on her lumpy cot
oh! come out and spend a week

(or longer!!)


we all miss you patsy
so come home please
were all shameless here..
we'll beg you on our knees



hahahaha i wrote this at one sittin. just off the top of my head
for you, **patsy**

we miss you

pezzyann was fooled on 10:46 a.m..

i can feel i can feel you near mne
even though your far away
i can feel i can feel you baby
why
its not supposed to feel this way
i need you i need you

more and more each day

pezzyann was fooled on 9:40 a.m..

here i am, 9:30 in the morning, i just got off work, got in the shower, now im sittin here eating soft chocolate chip cookies (that has been left on the desk for a few days. -okay .. more like a week. but whatever) :0þ and drinking milk
mmmmm strong bones

*yeah, im not chubby, i just got good real strong big bones* hehe

im also listening to *whispers* - avril lavigne. and i totally downloaded some new hanson stuff the other day. all new of course. none of that old stuff *bops head to mmm bop*

my room is such a mess, its turnin my stomach. im half afraid to pick the clothes off the floor now. afraid of whatever large anamials might be living and festering under there. oh god, were gonna need more then a small can of bug spray to get through here.

today is a good day. i feel happy. im smiling and singin for no reason. ive been talkin to __ lately, and thats awsome. he always makes me smile. things with me and mike are good. life is good right now. things are goin well. i hope the sun shines really bright all day tomorrow cause everything is just beautiful. i dont know, it could be the toxins and chemicals leakin into my brain from those crazy fousty cookies, but judgin on how i feel right now, we could all use some soggy cookies once in a while.

cookies for everyone, i say

pezzyann was fooled on 9:38 a.m..

so, mike has moved in. Im sittin here now at his (our) desk, on our computer (i bought a cam for it yesterday!) and its all next to his dresser.
its no real difference, he was here all the time anyways, but now i cant say, 'go home for while i need a break.' now i dont have any breaks. unless i sleep somehwere else.
its a big giant step to take, but its gonna be worth it. it makes the whole money situation a lot easier for everyone anyways
and its about time for me to be with someone and make an actual comitment.
go me

someone actually gave me a visa. -ME- who in their right mind would do such a crazy thing??? god bless their hearts. 500 $ limit on the sucker.
its all pretty funny how i came to get it or even apply for it
i wanted over draft on the saving account origonally. but she said i couldnt, caus ei didnt have credit. imagine that, couldnt give me 100$ over draft cause of no credit, so shes like, apply for a credit card.
im all like man you gotta be kiddin. how am i supposed to get a credit card without credit?? so i applied and completely forgot about it. i got a call a few days ago, 'your visa is here, all you need to do is come pick it up'
i was like OMG! they wouldnt give me 100, but theyre gonna give me 500?!?!
something isnt right, but im not complainin! thats for sure.

so all in all, everything seems alright.
ive been talkin to cara lately online, so that makes me feel really good. it really do. you only have one life to live, and i need my friends and family around me. i need love!!
*i feel like im in some cheesy after school special or something* hahaha

anyways i should get goin. me jenn and sheldon are goin downtown lookin at some stuff. its a beautiful day outside. so warm.
im totally wearing my sandals

pezzyann was fooled on 12:58 p.m..

it takes a little time sometimes
to get your feet back on the ground
It takes a little time sometimes
to turn the titanic around

pezzyann was fooled on 3:13 p.m..

i bet youre wonderin whats up the the name
well, its just that
my ass is stuck to the wooden chair and it hurts to move
lol
ouch
- this may be why they invented underwear. -FULL underwear, i mean

so i just got home from home-home. well, not just,. ive been sittin here on my butt for like 2 hours on this com already. so to better word it, i got home a while ago.
the weekend was good. all the family home. TOO MANY COOKS IN ONE KITCHEN
and too many drunks everywhere else
it was a great time. a good laugh

theyre gonna get mad at me for work for callin in sick.
what do you do
i tried to get the night off. it wasnt happenin though
they wouldnt give it to me. and like i was gonna miss this. what do you do really, oh my

vanessa will be havin her baby soon. who ever wouldve though. god love her heart
i hope all goes well for her

me and gina went out for a coffee on friday
it felt sooooo good to just see her
so sit and talk to her
i miss all the girls so much.
we were only gone for a minute cause she was studyin..
but all the same it was awsome
where did time go anyways? where did we go?
i miss it all so much. just bein a kid. being care free, livin off our parents. alwyas laughin. it was always fun
we were all such drama queens, but that made it more fun.

i miss it all

pezzyann was fooled on 3:13 p.m..

most people would kill for what i have
why am i even thinking it

but what are the chances or someone else loving me ever again?

pezzyann was fooled on 8:10 p.m..

my gold fish keep dying! mikes die this morning! -thankfully it wasnt mine, cause i just cant handle another fish death-
but i mean, its not like i keep them in a mayo jar anymore! they have theyre OWN tanks, little pretty rocks, little tree thing (mikes has a skull) clean, fresh water!
who would wanna die with a life like that?
theres goes my 1.99
damn fish
like the other day, i went and bought SIX from walmart, thinkin alright, theyre 58censt each. who cares if one or 2 dies.
woke up the next morning, -ALL ARE DEAD-

maybe i have bad fish karma
maybe in my past life, I was a fish and a real bith of one. and all the fish in the whole world world knew about me and how bad i was. and now, that im human (and theyre already jealous of my good looks) they remember me and want to die rather then my my pet!

-damn these good looks! -damn them

pezzyann was fooled on 5:43 p.m..

'can you feel my heart beat?'
He asked..
Stretching out his
Warm,
Dark hands
While I counted one by one
The beats
On his fingertips

les

pezzyann was fooled on 5:23 p.m..

I wanted someones
hand to hold
hoping, deep inside
it was yours
but in all ends
it wasn't
and, oh, how Ive missed out.
I miss you

les

pezzyann was fooled on 5:16 p.m..

I've grown up here now
All of my life
But I dreamed
Someday I'd go
Where blue eyed girls
And red guitars and
Naked rivers flow

I'm not all I thought I'd be
I always stayed around
I've been as far as Mercy and Grand
Frozen to the ground
I can't stay here and I'm scared to leave
(Just kiss me once and then)
I'll go to hell
I might as well
Be whistlin' down the wind

The bus at the corner
The clock's on the wall
Broken windmill
There's no wind at all
I've yelled and I cursed
If i stay here I'll rust
I'm stuck like a shipwreck
Out here in the dust

Sky is red
And there world's on fire
And the corn is taller than me
The dog is tied
To a wagon of rain
And the road is as wet as the sea
And sometimes the music from a dance
Will carry across the plains
And the places that I'm dreaming of
Do they dream only of me?
There are places where they never sleep
And the circus never ends
So I will take the Marley Bone Coach
And whistle down the wind

pezzyann was fooled on 3:51 p.m..

Hey everyone! So, Amy knows how ** is, and wonderful, he was! Not as I remembered him though. But its alright. you gotta love that little awdark silence and nervous laughter
(and marshmellows stuck to the walls)

*I love you brian ryan*

Jenn is here. god love her. ive been smoking more then ever with her around, cause its always like, "who wants a smoke??" and im always up for a one. hehe its nice to have someone else here in the araptment though. another girls voice in the place. it awsome. I hope the whole house thing falls through and we can all live together. me, shel, her and mike.

theres this poety convention thing going on on sunday. im really thinkin about going. it sounds like an alright time. theres an open mike where people can read as well. so if i dont chicken out like i normally do, i might wobble up there and read something. probably not though.
I hate speeking in a crowd
I hate being in a crowd when the attention is focused on me.

I can hear the pitter patter of jenns little feet. shes probably cleanin again! bless her, she does some cleaning. i dont say this place knows whats goin on from the cleaning.

anyways im headin out for a smoke! lol
so i guess ill have to write some more later

XO

pezzyann was fooled on 3:46 p.m..