Sunday, October 23, 2005
what a busy weekend!
i havent stopped
friday night mikes parents were in and we had the whole dunken girl situation haha thats a story in itself!
saturday i got up, hung out with mikes mom for a bit, went to walmart, finally got home (after gettin freezing cold and soaking wet)got home, was home for a few minutes, cought the bus to pam and stephs. had a laugh there, had a few drinks, (a few a lot of drinks..) got home by 12, went with dave at 12:30. got to his place while he got ready and then headed off. got downtown by 2, (were dave LEFT me the whole night lol) got home from that drunk as a skunk by 4:30.
got up again at 11 on sunday (today) went to the movies with amy and had a look around the mall, got home, was talking to dustin then went out for coffee with him!
and NOW im home!
phew! im beat
cant wait to crawl into bed and go to sleeeeeep
my phone is so fucked up.
i hate rogers.
hmm, i think i might sue them for emotional distress or something.
they give me nothing but grief.
christmas is on its way and i cant wait!
i got some christmas things bought already. i wanted to get a start on it a.s.a.p! im glad i did too. everything is soooooo expensive!
me and any went and saw elizabethtown today.
that movie was odd. i think it was one of those movies that had like hidden meanings and it was something you had to really understand to get it.
the ending of the movie was the best, even a little sad. had to hold back the tears a little at one part
haha
of course.
lord knows me. i cant watch a movie without the water works kickin in
ahah
anyways bedtime for me!
i got a weird nervous sick feeling.. strange.
i havent stopped
friday night mikes parents were in and we had the whole dunken girl situation haha thats a story in itself!
saturday i got up, hung out with mikes mom for a bit, went to walmart, finally got home (after gettin freezing cold and soaking wet)got home, was home for a few minutes, cought the bus to pam and stephs. had a laugh there, had a few drinks, (a few a lot of drinks..) got home by 12, went with dave at 12:30. got to his place while he got ready and then headed off. got downtown by 2, (were dave LEFT me the whole night lol) got home from that drunk as a skunk by 4:30.
got up again at 11 on sunday (today) went to the movies with amy and had a look around the mall, got home, was talking to dustin then went out for coffee with him!
and NOW im home!
phew! im beat
cant wait to crawl into bed and go to sleeeeeep
my phone is so fucked up.
i hate rogers.
hmm, i think i might sue them for emotional distress or something.
they give me nothing but grief.
christmas is on its way and i cant wait!
i got some christmas things bought already. i wanted to get a start on it a.s.a.p! im glad i did too. everything is soooooo expensive!
me and any went and saw elizabethtown today.
that movie was odd. i think it was one of those movies that had like hidden meanings and it was something you had to really understand to get it.
the ending of the movie was the best, even a little sad. had to hold back the tears a little at one part
haha
of course.
lord knows me. i cant watch a movie without the water works kickin in
ahah
anyways bedtime for me!
i got a weird nervous sick feeling.. strange.
pezzyann was fooled on 11:21 p.m..
Sunday, October 16, 2005
Man, i can NOT warm up. my nipples got so hard they actually hurt earlier! LOL i know, everyone wanted to know that.. but god damn, i got the chills!
hahah
anyway
not much new to report or anything. got a HUGE pimple on my face. like wtf is up with that? its massave!
haha
-no, i have NOTHING better to write about.
I have watched sister hood of the traveling pants twice in the last 2 days. And cried both times! lol
not at the happy parts, liek weirdo robyn.. at the sad ones heh
(okay, and a little and the happy ones.)
Ive realised that the things that me and mike do, that seem really cute to me, arent as cute when i see other people do it. LOL like whoever too, in the mall, on the streets, at tim horitns.. where ever.
mental note: stop doing the annoying, not-so cute stuff in public hahha
damn im starving. its too late to eat supper now though. and i gotta lose those 4 pounds i gained!
eeek..!! my stomach is seriously growling.
maybe ill drink lots of water and fill my tummy with smoke
heh
that always seems to fill me right up!
-yeah riiiight
man, that freekin pimple better be gone tomorrow.
im sittin here with EMU oil on it. thats right. emu. like, WTF? they squeeze these birds till the oil drips from them? or pluck their feathers or got forbid.. get it from the insides of these birds..? *shutters*
eww
i dont even wanna think about it
anyways i suppose ill be off.
im off tomorrow, so i wanna sleeeeep in
i know that wont happen though.
ohhh to dream of staying in bed till 9 in the morning! *dreamy eyes* *dreamy sigh*
lol
i think im spelling dreamy wrong. dreamy? dreamie? dream-y *smiles*
hahah
anyway
not much new to report or anything. got a HUGE pimple on my face. like wtf is up with that? its massave!
haha
-no, i have NOTHING better to write about.
I have watched sister hood of the traveling pants twice in the last 2 days. And cried both times! lol
not at the happy parts, liek weirdo robyn.. at the sad ones heh
(okay, and a little and the happy ones.)
Ive realised that the things that me and mike do, that seem really cute to me, arent as cute when i see other people do it. LOL like whoever too, in the mall, on the streets, at tim horitns.. where ever.
mental note: stop doing the annoying, not-so cute stuff in public hahha
damn im starving. its too late to eat supper now though. and i gotta lose those 4 pounds i gained!
eeek..!! my stomach is seriously growling.
maybe ill drink lots of water and fill my tummy with smoke
heh
that always seems to fill me right up!
-yeah riiiight
man, that freekin pimple better be gone tomorrow.
im sittin here with EMU oil on it. thats right. emu. like, WTF? they squeeze these birds till the oil drips from them? or pluck their feathers or got forbid.. get it from the insides of these birds..? *shutters*
eww
i dont even wanna think about it
anyways i suppose ill be off.
im off tomorrow, so i wanna sleeeeep in
i know that wont happen though.
ohhh to dream of staying in bed till 9 in the morning! *dreamy eyes* *dreamy sigh*
lol
i think im spelling dreamy wrong. dreamy? dreamie? dream-y *smiles*
pezzyann was fooled on 8:52 p.m..
Tuesday, October 11, 2005
I was going to go to the school today
steped out the door and it was a freekin rain storm!
pouring down rain, wind enough to blow the brains out of a cat!
i got to the mall (across the road) to the bank, by the time i got through the door, my hair was dripping wet, the make up was all over my face (so much for waterproof mascara) i was SOAKED from titts to toes (even my bra was wet!) i was wippin away my make up and half on the ball thinking, i aint goin to any school today!
ended up going to wal mart anyways, lookin like a drowned rat hah
But i DID see sharron!
oh sharron! she was lookin just beautiful! she got her hair done with blond highlights and shes just lookin wonderful!
it was so nice to see her.
so we stood and had a chat and stuff in the middle of the mall.
we were laughing and swearing and it was just like back in the good ol days (or nights) at convergys. my lord, did we all have fun.
and then on the way home, i ran into bill.. (a man who i used to work overnights with)
and he gave me a ride home and hes also doing real well.
my lord.
everyone is moving on.
and here i i sit (or there i sat)
the only one left there from my team.
my lord.
who would have known.. it would be just me.
*To leave, after all, was not that same as being left..*
anyways thats it i guess.
oh, well today after i got off the bus from walmart, the bus 4 was right there. i ws walking towards it and it started to move. i kinda laughed at first, thinking, hes gotta be kidding.. but he kept going! i RAN after that olf fart.. i was AT the bus.. i would reach over and touch the damn thing.. and the cunt too off!
i was like oh my god.. haha
so i went thorugh the mall, luggin around this HUGE picture frams..
it was wicked. hah
i hate the busses.
well, actually, i hate the bus drivers.
and the creep - os on the bus.
steped out the door and it was a freekin rain storm!
pouring down rain, wind enough to blow the brains out of a cat!
i got to the mall (across the road) to the bank, by the time i got through the door, my hair was dripping wet, the make up was all over my face (so much for waterproof mascara) i was SOAKED from titts to toes (even my bra was wet!) i was wippin away my make up and half on the ball thinking, i aint goin to any school today!
ended up going to wal mart anyways, lookin like a drowned rat hah
But i DID see sharron!
oh sharron! she was lookin just beautiful! she got her hair done with blond highlights and shes just lookin wonderful!
it was so nice to see her.
so we stood and had a chat and stuff in the middle of the mall.
we were laughing and swearing and it was just like back in the good ol days (or nights) at convergys. my lord, did we all have fun.
and then on the way home, i ran into bill.. (a man who i used to work overnights with)
and he gave me a ride home and hes also doing real well.
my lord.
everyone is moving on.
and here i i sit (or there i sat)
the only one left there from my team.
my lord.
who would have known.. it would be just me.
*To leave, after all, was not that same as being left..*
anyways thats it i guess.
oh, well today after i got off the bus from walmart, the bus 4 was right there. i ws walking towards it and it started to move. i kinda laughed at first, thinking, hes gotta be kidding.. but he kept going! i RAN after that olf fart.. i was AT the bus.. i would reach over and touch the damn thing.. and the cunt too off!
i was like oh my god.. haha
so i went thorugh the mall, luggin around this HUGE picture frams..
it was wicked. hah
i hate the busses.
well, actually, i hate the bus drivers.
and the creep - os on the bus.
pezzyann was fooled on 7:54 p.m..
Goodby My Lover
Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
Cause I saw the end before wed begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it wont stop there,
I am here for you if youd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
Ive kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
Ive been addicted to you.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You cant break my spirit - its my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
Ive seen you cry, Ive seen you smile.
Ive watched you sleeping for a while.
Id be the father of your child.
Id spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
Weve had our doubts but now were fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when Im asleep.
And I will bare my soul in time,
When Im kneeling at your feet.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
Im so hollow, baby, Im so hollow.
Im so, Im so, Im so hollow.
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
Cause I saw the end before wed begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it wont stop there,
I am here for you if youd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
Ive kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
Ive been addicted to you.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You cant break my spirit - its my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
Ive seen you cry, Ive seen you smile.
Ive watched you sleeping for a while.
Id be the father of your child.
Id spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
Weve had our doubts but now were fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when Im asleep.
And I will bare my soul in time,
When Im kneeling at your feet.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
Im so hollow, baby, Im so hollow.
Im so, Im so, Im so hollow.
pezzyann was fooled on 7:43 p.m..
Sunday, October 09, 2005
Its a sad night tonight. well, earlier tonight, i was watching my little videos of mike on my phone and i bawled.. i just miss him so much and god damn, its hard being alone. and lonely. if this is what its going to be like for now and on.. him leaving for months, me home alone.. i dont know if i can do it. its way to hard.
i just got off the phone with him then and had another wee cry for myself.
ive been slackin off on the gym all this week. havent gone once. i have to go EVERY day this week that im working. and just work my butt off!
id say i got about 5 pounds on.
damn those hot rods and pickled weiners!
deb and tammy have been out for the last couple days.
its nice having some company around here.
theyre all out there loaded drunk now going downtown.
im in bed.
ive got work tomorrow.
giddy-god-damn-up.
im just gettin more and more discouraged with work and everything.
and where i am and where im going..
(where AM i going?)
who knows. im looing into a few things now.. i was day dreaming all day today about what i could possibly do and everything.
if only i had the money.
i wish wish wish i would win 25 million. that would be so good. oh lord.. everyone i know taken care of. me taken care of..
hello mike, its time to come home!
goodbye sleepy city! hello new york.
mom and dad could have whatever they wanted in this entire world! dad could retire.. mom could shop and shop and shop and have an extra house for just her things is she wanted.
debbie just sneezed about 10 times.
10 'bless yous' to her.
Yeah, she caught my eye, As we walked on by.
She could see from my face that I was,
Fuckin' high,
And I don't think that I'll see her again,
But we shared a moment that will last till the end
i just got off the phone with him then and had another wee cry for myself.
ive been slackin off on the gym all this week. havent gone once. i have to go EVERY day this week that im working. and just work my butt off!
id say i got about 5 pounds on.
damn those hot rods and pickled weiners!
deb and tammy have been out for the last couple days.
its nice having some company around here.
theyre all out there loaded drunk now going downtown.
im in bed.
ive got work tomorrow.
giddy-god-damn-up.
im just gettin more and more discouraged with work and everything.
and where i am and where im going..
(where AM i going?)
who knows. im looing into a few things now.. i was day dreaming all day today about what i could possibly do and everything.
if only i had the money.
i wish wish wish i would win 25 million. that would be so good. oh lord.. everyone i know taken care of. me taken care of..
hello mike, its time to come home!
goodbye sleepy city! hello new york.
mom and dad could have whatever they wanted in this entire world! dad could retire.. mom could shop and shop and shop and have an extra house for just her things is she wanted.
debbie just sneezed about 10 times.
10 'bless yous' to her.
Yeah, she caught my eye, As we walked on by.
She could see from my face that I was,
Fuckin' high,
And I don't think that I'll see her again,
But we shared a moment that will last till the end
pezzyann was fooled on 12:25 a.m..
Tuesday, October 04, 2005
mike has been gone for one whole month today..
jeebus, time flew by..
my lord.
where is the time going? where have the last 2 years gone? the last 3? the last 10..?
im going to the fat cat tonight.. flying solo though. thats okay though, cause i like to sit quietly and just enjoy her. i wish you could still smoke in there though!
smoking make her sound even more wonderful!
i just wanted to smoke and smoke over and over again listening to her.
(i want one now, damnit)
lol
I think i might wear my ugly shoes down there too
and bring my new purse
woohoo
i wish i had a nice coat though. a night dressy (but warm) black coat. like pams!
ohh
thats on my new 'to get list'
a nice coat.
i think i head the value village calling.. heh
ohh what to write..
i had a very drunk weekend.
friday night i was bored, no plans, so i said fuck it. and drank damn near a dozen beer myself. LOL
saturday dave came over, so of course i had to drink some more!
we were out all night. literatly. i never got home till 6:30 ish. never got to bed till 7ish. was up AGAIN by like 9 then up all day. could NOT sleep. damn.. i scrubbed the bathroom, tidied the living room, did my laundry, cleaned my room
lol
all before 10:30 in the morning. it was crazy.
i seriously could NOT sleep.. and then i started to picture fucked up things in my head, like peoples faces being twisted out of shape (like the previews for that damn emily rose movie)
and then i went into panic mood, thinking, im never going to sleep again! ill be so tired and ill miss work and ill be put up for review of employment!
and then, for some strange reason, i though of my hair ties (or hair elastics) and all i could think of then was, oh my god, what if i ran out of hair ties??
i know!
stupid. lol
anyways i got a small nap in later that day and then went to sleep at like 9:30 that night.
im happy to report that i made it to work AND i never got put up for any review of employment.
haha
oh my!
god its so windy out!
its blowing a gail!
i never did like that saying.. but thats how windy it is!
anyways i guess thats it for now. i suppose ill head off. maybe friends is on. :-) ooohh i hope so. i could use a little stupid humor
heh
les
jeebus, time flew by..
my lord.
where is the time going? where have the last 2 years gone? the last 3? the last 10..?
im going to the fat cat tonight.. flying solo though. thats okay though, cause i like to sit quietly and just enjoy her. i wish you could still smoke in there though!
smoking make her sound even more wonderful!
i just wanted to smoke and smoke over and over again listening to her.
(i want one now, damnit)
lol
I think i might wear my ugly shoes down there too
and bring my new purse
woohoo
i wish i had a nice coat though. a night dressy (but warm) black coat. like pams!
ohh
thats on my new 'to get list'
a nice coat.
i think i head the value village calling.. heh
ohh what to write..
i had a very drunk weekend.
friday night i was bored, no plans, so i said fuck it. and drank damn near a dozen beer myself. LOL
saturday dave came over, so of course i had to drink some more!
we were out all night. literatly. i never got home till 6:30 ish. never got to bed till 7ish. was up AGAIN by like 9 then up all day. could NOT sleep. damn.. i scrubbed the bathroom, tidied the living room, did my laundry, cleaned my room
lol
all before 10:30 in the morning. it was crazy.
i seriously could NOT sleep.. and then i started to picture fucked up things in my head, like peoples faces being twisted out of shape (like the previews for that damn emily rose movie)
and then i went into panic mood, thinking, im never going to sleep again! ill be so tired and ill miss work and ill be put up for review of employment!
and then, for some strange reason, i though of my hair ties (or hair elastics) and all i could think of then was, oh my god, what if i ran out of hair ties??
i know!
stupid. lol
anyways i got a small nap in later that day and then went to sleep at like 9:30 that night.
im happy to report that i made it to work AND i never got put up for any review of employment.
haha
oh my!
god its so windy out!
its blowing a gail!
i never did like that saying.. but thats how windy it is!
anyways i guess thats it for now. i suppose ill head off. maybe friends is on. :-) ooohh i hope so. i could use a little stupid humor
heh
les
pezzyann was fooled on 8:06 p.m..