walking home from work today, this moring, when normal people are alseep on saturdays i was stunned. I smelled the ocean. not gas or smoke or sheep shit. it was the OCEAN. it smelled just like home does. and as gross as i think it smells, it made me very homesick.
i hardly live far away, yet i never get to go home. i never get to see my friends or my old room.(which is now repainted and re furnished and not even mine anymore)
it made me think of the way gina would sniff and say "oh i love the smell of the ocean!" and the way it would make my head feel fuzzy. it made me think of cara leanin over the guard rail with her arms in the air yelling "rise, holgens! and live again!" it made me think o f crystal saying "eww, you guys hold hands?" it made me think of tia and all the girls having fires on the beach. and all the guys. the "gang". it made me think of everything, which now, for me, is nothing at all.
cause this is what we are now.

pezzyann was fooled on 10:44 p.m..

soo what to talk about
lets see
how about the expierence i had with my hair!

i remember it was a sunday (last sunday, actually, i remember, cause it was mothers day and sheldon and i had just finished stuffin a big bird. -which was the most gross thing ive ever done. i taped grocery bags to my hands and held the legs open. and then urged till i was almost sick)
i decided, "hey, ill get mom to highlight my hair!!"
and highlight she did ...
they wouldve have some out okay, only for the fact that they turned YELLOW
and Im not talkin about a blonde blonde, im talkin 'ouch! my eyes, your hair is too bright!' yellow. so i was like, oh well, i cant go around like this. so i trotted to the little store and picked up 2 bottles of dark blonde hair dye. goin against my better judgement, i dyed my hair again.
and dyed it did...
i was then a flammin red hair.
not so much flammin, i guess as light redhead.
after the shock of lookin in the mirror, i shed a few tears then went to the store and got yet anoter, 2 bottles of dye. this time, brown. thinking, okay, what can go wrong with dark drown dye?
and wrong it was
i ended up with an off red off brown color. i was thinking, it dont look that bad. so i went to work. then people told me it was green under the lights
well lord jesus, i said! and after work, i went to the store and picked up again another 2 bottles of dye (if your wonderin why 2, its because i have big hair, and it takes that much)
and low and behold. there it was. dark brown with light chest nut highlights (or something along the lines) her hair look so pretty on the box, so i said, this is it. this time, its gonna come out good
so i powerwalked home, anxious to get it in
ohhh, and in it was
i washed it out after 10 minutes when i looked in the mirror and saw it was the color of carrott
so after spending already 60 $ on craptacular hair dye, i called over to the salon, half in tears, totally a lady in distress, saying that i have the BIGGEST hair disaster and i need it fixed!
i got my app for 4. hauled my lazy ass out of bed and there and god love her soul
i now have a nice brown color
and it only cost me 69.00$ (why so much?? i sure your wondering. well, because of the large volume of my hair, she had to use 3 times what she normally would on my hair)

so now im a nice brown head
everyone is complimenting it and they all say it looks great.
they might just be eing nice, but i think its alright

and hey, its not easy (or cheap) being this beautiful

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pezzyann was fooled on 9:56 a.m..

so my pic is gone for now..
it was hosted off of sheldons page, which is down for a while.
sorry all, i know how much you loves lookin at my beautiful picture *smiles*
itll be back up to normal soon enough though
so hold tight
:-)

pezzyann was fooled on 10:09 a.m..

I said baby, it's 3am, I must be lonely..

pezzyann was fooled on 9:57 a.m..

im sittin here, eatin my fuzzy peaches. its 10:45 in the morning and i should be asleep.
i think i have a sugar rush from all the candy though
*when i do this, inside my head goes ding ding ding*
hahaha if youre mark, you know what im talking about. if youre not mark, then youre probably confused. which is what i am most of the time
(welcome to my world!)

so im hopin to get some money flowin in.. lots of money, actually. if thats the case, ill be flyin off to TO in a heart beat. just for a few days. maybe ill get me a tan in their nice weather. its sunny here, but "colder then a whitches titt" (hehe) i dont know whos wanna go out and sun tan in this
not me, thats for sure

mmmmm sugar...

these night shifts are takin theyre tole on me. i miss sleepin with mike. i hate to sleep by myself. no one to cuddle with.. he gets sad to when i go to work, cause he has to sleep by himself all night
(for those of you not so mushy people, im probably turnin your stomach) haha. but seriously. im so used to having someone next to me while im sleepin and now theres no one
i dont know

i also need some blood pressure and nerve pills. im makin an app at the doc on monday for some. maybe then ill be able to calm myself down when i take one of my fits. honest to god. theyre gettin out of hand now..

mmmmmm sugar...

anyways i suppose i should be goin and do something worth while for a change.
maybe ill make mikes lunch for him so he wont have to eat just a can of ham for lunch when he comes.
god love him

gone

*she says its all gonna end and it might as well be my fault*

pezzyann was fooled on 10:55 a.m..

you say dont fear your dreams
its easier then it seems
you say youll never let me fall from hopes so high
but never is a promise, and you cant afford a lie

You'll say you understand, you'll never understand
I'll say I'll never wake up knowing how or why
I don't know what to believe in, you don't know who I am
You'll say I need appeasing when I start to cry
But never is a promise and I'll never need a lie

pezzyann was fooled on 10:45 a.m..

well, mike took my nice big black perminate marker (the one perry gave me) the one that smells sooooo good. he says i sniff it too much,
i say NEVER!
mmmmm marker smell *drools*

i dont really have a whole lot to write today. its been a couple days since i last wrote. not a lot has happend. work is a bitch. im doin real good, all my stats are fine, but im sooo tired there. i got the next 2 nights off so thats excellent.
i need to get my widsom tooth out too, so theres another few nights off work. im totally gettin my ass put to sleep to get them out this time. none of this sittin in the chair tryin to hold my next stiff so it dont snap off business.
never again. rough bastard.

im a little tired now. me and mike just finished cleanin up the room, so now we can finally see the floor
(we, we do have one of those..)
hehe

anyways i guess i should be goin. oh i not new sanshoes at walmart. you know, the half sneeker half sandal deal type thing. at work you cant wear open toe completely or backless sandals (in other words you have to wear mens sports sandals or none at all)
:-þ so i got the sneekerie ones. haha try to give me a violation me now suckers!
muwahahah! *evil laugh*

anyways, im out. take care all
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pezzyann was fooled on 11:11 p.m..