so i figured id update. since no one else does.

this post is gonna be full of typos. ive got new nails and i dont know how to work with them yet. i have, however, perfected stracthin myself to bits and bangin them off everything. lol its funny though, every night i dream that i pulled them off or cracked them or lost them somehow. so every morning i wake up and i gotta look for them first thing to make sure theyre still there. too funny.

so im gonna make a turkey dinner tomorrow. all by myself! - with the help of mom of course. but all on my own! i was lookin at the turkeys today.. gibblets included? WTF is a gibblet?
"excuse me .. whats a gibblets?"
nice old man and lady, "oh thats the liver and heart and neck and stuff. very good."
"so its in a bag inside or something?"
"yes my dear. it goes inside. it doesnt need to be cooked as long as the turkey though, so you got to take it out early"
hmmm... this is trickier then i though. i have never once been offered a gibblet at the supper table!
"is this your first time?" the old man said. referring, of course, to the turky
"oh yes.. "
"well, dont be intimidated by it! good luck. remember.. gibblets come out BEFORE the turkey!"
"oh, thank you!"

im just gonna reach in and whatever i pulls out is going in the garbage. i figured mike would do the guts pullin and hand up the ass nonsense... but hes just as grossed out about it as i am. so its all up to me.
i got extra bags left aside so i can wear them on my hands.

ohmygod. i fell. we were in the atlantic place for mike to pay his speedin ticket. anyway going down the escalator i pretended like i was gonna kick mike down the steps.. so he speeds off in front of me, walkin away pretending to be mad.
so i step onto the pretty shiney death floor and down i goes
like a tonne of freekin bricks.
i just sat there
purse flew, coat gone, sun glasses flew off my head.
i sat there with my head in my hands
no way did i just fall.
im pretty sure i shook the whole building too.
i heard everyone gasps. and point. what happened? she fell. i think she fell.
mike is walkin on
im sittin on the freekin floor. red as can be.
this very attractive man who just happened to be behind us on the escalator held out his hand and asked if i needed help
no, im fine.. i said
MIKE!
he turns around and comes back. and because of my bum knee i DO need help gettin up.
so im up
and i pretty much RUN out of atlantic place.

i suppose, its not a proper outting if lesley doesnt fall.

pezzyann was fooled on 4:32 p.m..

this is me
standing in front of you
its to my skin
its to my skin
red
red
its a mess. everything is a mess

in front of me
in front of me
to my lips

almost like the sweetest kiss

my eyes are blue
my hair was made to be curly
its to my skin
in my skin

you know he died with his eyes open
watching me, almost...
with his eyes open

inside my skin

my lips are pink
my eyes are blue
my hair is curly
i think of you

with eyes open

pezzyann was fooled on 5:19 p.m..