Dont tell me you know
all about it
when you know nothing
of
because I smile for the compliment
and
today I spent 6 dollars on love
then smoked away the lonely
that lays
deep inside
What do you think is beautiful?

pezzyann was fooled on 4:32 p.m..

so i saw myself on video the other day. and lordy! its some time for some serious dieting!
gotta get this "tank ass" in shape. LOL
nothing but low fat, low taste crap for me

wanna trade lunches?
come on! carrot sticks for that bar?!
okay, fine, you can have the low fat ranch sauce too ..
sheesh. I want, I want .. Take all I got by!

mmmmmmmmchocolate! *orgasim*

*giggles*


gone

pezzyann was fooled on 9:53 p.m..

HAHAHAHA
I laugh
and id say tammys laughing too. oh lord.
I want a new job. One where i can dress up, wear perfume, where scented deodorant and high heals
and have nice hair (thats aloud to smell of shampoo )

I was just talking to robyn and shes thinking of coming home for a year and then going back up to work. Crazy. Id love to go up there for a year. Id love to go up there period.
I would love to just get out of there. I dont want to go to school right now. I dont know what Id want to do in school if I do decide to go. I like to leave convergys and this apartment with this tiny room. This room is just beyond me. The mess and clutter and stuff is just to much to handle. Weve got too much shit and no room to put it all. It drives me nuts, really.

I just bit my nail and it was very bitter.
were not gonna think about whatever I just bit into.
LOL
eww

tomorrow is thanksgiving in the states. Thank god. should be good and slow tomorrow. Were gonna hope it is, anyway. Id like to have another day where i sit and do absoutely the least amount of work I can do. Milk that fuckin place for everything they god. Bunch of fuckers. I dont think i can hate the place more then I already do.

anyways, enough bitching for one night, I suppose Ill have to be off.

gone


*the more we take the less we become*

pezzyann was fooled on 9:53 p.m..

The road is a lot wider
then anyone of us know
yet I still
walk on the sidelines
looking out (or over my back)
while I carry this handicap
thats as heavy as
the whole world
alone
on
my
shoulders

pezzyann was fooled on 5:09 p.m..

argh fuck it
i just a had a huge entry writtin and lost the whole damn thing
fuck it
grrr
it was a funny one too
im so pissed right now
damnit!!!!

GRRRRR
fuck

pezzyann was fooled on 1:37 p.m..

and I whisper to you
the things that I was way to scared to say outloud (or even think)
and you
sat with me and listened
and you know I hated this world
(that has such a distasteful beauty that I, still, can sometimes not see)
and youve seen my naked truths
and yet you still
look (you really look)
into my eyes
And I sit
sit .. while you stand
and I tell you everything thats wrong
and you show me everything thats right
and somehow
you make it equal out
and when I felt alone and ugly, and when everyone else seemed to forget my existance
"its okay" you said
"dance anyway .. I love to hear you sing"



to P.B and her wimmies
and everything else about her that makes me smile
thank you

pezzyann was fooled on 10:57 p.m..

im sittin here. listing to some older music.
good ol avril lavgine and live
which i still dont know
is it live, as in, live each day to the fullest?
of live, like, its a live animal
anyways, regardless what it is, im listeninng to a live virson of one of their songs nad its really nice
i was also listenin to lightening crashes
and never once did i notice that the lyrics are , 'and the placentia fall to the floor'
which always makes me think of poor little rhonda and her placentia head (and feet sausages) lol
man, over nights would kill ya! (or just make you seriously demented! thats for sure!)

im still thinking about truckin to alberta. if mike dont go ill fly
i gotta get tlaking to robyn first though. make sure there are apartment buildings and hotels and stuff around
i dont know
maybe i wont even bother to go
maybe ill just find a better job here
one where i get to look nice everyday and not feel like shit
i could look nice at convergys, but why try to look good only to get there and feel like crap
dumb ass americans

anyways enough ranting for now, i suppose
sleep well all
sweet dreams


gone

"Baby, if I could keep it together don't you think I'd try?And maybe if I could make something of this,Why wouldn't I?"

pezzyann was fooled on 7:31 p.m..