oh my god
last night we went to the oil can. boobs out, drinks in. and we met up with these 2 girls i know from coming into work, marnie and joyce (theyre together)
so they always give me a hard time. i see them at the oil can all the time and they get me out dancning and stuff.
anyway, last night we were sittin at a table and joyce came over and sat with us and looked at me and robyn and was like, you know, you 2 make such a cute couple.
i was like, oh dear, were nothing together like that.. hehehe
she was kinda surprised. maybe its from all the dirty dancing and kissing. lol but only when skeevy old men are trying to pick us up. then we pull the lesbian card. or for money. haha we kiss for money (only one time! lol)
ANYWAY
at the end of the night, iw ent to say goodnight to marnie and shes like, "i dont mean to put you on the spot, but are you bi-courious at all?"
i was like, naw, not really. i mean, ive kissed girls. you know. dont do much for me. id perfer the men." lol god love her. shes like, come on, are you SURE you dont like girls? like, i bet you would if you tired.. (like trying to get me to sample a piece of food or something. lol. just give it a little try. dont know you dont like it unless you try or something. hehe) anyways i was like, nope, im pretty sure i liked the bird. she was married 9 years, got 2 kids, used to be a cop. shes super sweet.
shes like, "Lesley, shake yo big ass!"
so i wiggle it at them hah
too funny
anyway
that was my story. it was a fun night
were all gettin together tomorrow night for new years and goig to the oil can.
they were like, girl, if that dress shows your boobs, wear it!
lol

oh those silly lesbians. hehe

pezzyann was fooled on 12:42 a.m..

pezzyann was fooled on 12:42 a.m..

Christmas was good.
Really good. Everyone (Santa) was really good to me.
I got so many wonderful things.
a new fancy photographers camera. - expect more pictures.

im obsessed with a new song. lol does that surprise anyone? hhaha

I dont really have a lot more to say. no funny stories for now. No sad stories either, so thats a good thing, i guess.

I hope everyone is doing well. I hope everyone had a good christmas. and i hope everyone has a happy new year. Thanks for everything, everyone. everything was amazing.

my first christmas away from my home and my family wasnt so bad. i survived!
go me
i think i get points for just breathin in and out.
weve got so much trouble here. So much more trouble is coming.
Im holding my head though. keepin my word.
just breathin is gonna be tough when this is all done and over
Dirt mac is not working for me! thats for sure.
were still missin half a wall, still no heaters, taco time is still out. and were about a gazillion in the hole. were going up the richest man in canada, the manager from taco time said. no one has ever one.
i said, remember this face, cause this is going to be the first person who will.

just breathin is gonna be tough. keepin my head above it all.







Its coming on Christmas
Theyre cutting down trees
Theyre putting up reindeer
And singing songs of joy and peace

I wish I had a river I could skate away on

Now it dont snow here
It stays pretty green
Im gonna make a lotta money
And Im gonna quit this crazy scene

I wish I had a river I could skate away on
I wish I had a river so long I would teach my feet to fly
Oh I wish I had a river I could skate away on

I made my baby cry

She tried hard to help me
She put me at ease
And she loved me so naughty
She made me weak in the knees

I wish I had a river I could skate away on

Im so hard to handle
Im selfish, Im sad
And Ive gone and lost the best baby that I ever had

I wish I had a river I could skate away on
I wish I had a river so long I would teach my feet to fly

Oh I wish I had a river I could skate away on

I made my baby say goodbye

Its coming on Christmas
Theyre cutting down trees
Theyre putting up reindeer
And singing songs of joy and peace

I wish I had a river I could skate away on

pezzyann was fooled on 9:03 p.m..

(yes, spelled with a Y)

oh my god. this movie.
Me Robyn and Joleen went to the movies last night and saw it. im telling you, i cried through half of it. and I cried cause it was happpy and because it was sad and powerful.
oh my god.
I cant stand to see Will Smith cry. I want to see it again. I want to watch it right now. And man, can that man run. damn.
if theres nothing else you do, id say watch this movie first. Amazing. Amazing.
Amazing.

The theater... not so amazing. it was kinda sketchy. Kinda like the stephenville one.. but with smaller seats. im talking small. at first, i was like, i am not gettin my thighs in that seat. lol
robyn had to "shimmy" in (and not the sexy kind of shimmey) heh so you had to kinda of drop one side of your bum in first, then the other side, then slide back. my freekin pants (cause you know i wore pj pants lol) were sliding off my ass. i was like damnit. bare ass on the sketchy theater seat.
talk about laughing me and robyn were doing. then there was NO space between out row and the one in front of us, so when you slouch in the seat, your knees are pressed up against the other row. and then cause you were pretty much jammed in there you couldnt really move. lol
and im thinking, alright. fair is fair.. i got some ass goin on... but its not abnormally big. how do actual BIGGER people sit here? I wouldve been much more comfortable sittin on the floor in the middle of the isle.

ive got christmas baking to do today. Im excited about it.

oh, dear lord, you should see the christmas gift i got. we all had a christmas party last night with work and we did a gift exchange. Amanda got me this 10 inch pink jello dildo. LOL talk about laughing we did. oh my. maybe ill get a pic of it and post it so everyone can see how enjoyable it is. lol but really, who needs 10 inches
?
hahah

pezzyann was fooled on 1:36 p.m..

so i cant spell. buts its dakupag im talking about. that craft that rosie is obsessed with.
well she did it on her show the other day, looked like fun so i went nd got the stuff
it was pretty fun!
im excited abut it

and you know as soon as the view was over, there were lineups to get to the isle where the mod podge was and everything
i laughed a little

what an influence she has on people.
im on a little rosie kick now. im in love with her. hehe

im at work and were super slow.
ive had 4 money transfers all day. and one person checking their mail. ad one sending a fax.
whowh. im beat.

hmmm i dont really have a whole lot to talk about.
i think theres a dead body out behind our apartment by the dump, under the snow.
theres long human hair come out of the snow, and its been there a while, and if you try to kick it away, it doesnt come out. like its attached to something down there. and ill be damned if im the one who looks. lol
but me and robyn are like, man, theres definatly a body down there. hehe
but then like, if we call the cops or something and tell them waht i think, and they go and check it out and its really nothing but... like... fur or somethin growing off a rubber boot, ill be so embarrassed. maybe ill go over there after work and try to shuffel some of the snow away. i mean, if it is something dead (even an anamal with freekishly long hair) its been under snow and ice for a while, so it should be pretty well reserved, right?
oh god
*shutters*
dont even wanna think about it really
lol

oh my god, we have the CUTEST door! hahah me and robin wrapped our door in wrapping paperm then got ribbon and put around it (like it was actually wrapped in ribbon) and got this big green bow and put in the center.
it looks like a big present.
so cute. hehe
talk about us out gigglin at 12 in the night, taping christmas paper to our door.
good lord.

Hmmm there really isnt else to talk about.
i got the oc going on in the background. so thatl keep me busy for a little while

pezzyann was fooled on 4:00 p.m..

All around me are familiar faces
Worn out places, worn out faces
Bright and early for their daily races
Going nowhere, going nowhere
Their tears are filling up their glasses
No expression, no expression
Hide my head I want to drown my sorrow
No tomorrow, no tomorrow
And I find it kinda funnyI find it kinda sad
The dreams in which I'm dying
Are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you
I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very, very mad world mad world
Children waiting for the day they feel good
Happy Birthday, Happy Birthday
Made to feel the way that every child should
Sit and listen, sit and listen
Went to school and I was very nervous
No one knew me, no one knew me
Hello teacher tell me what's my lesson
Look right through me, look right through me
And I find it kinda funnyI find it kinda sad
The dreams in which I'm dying
Are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell youI find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very, very mad world ...
world
Enlarge your world
Mad world

pezzyann was fooled on 1:22 a.m..

All of Rosies blog entries
are like
poems
or words of wisdom, im not
really sure
but i figured
id give it a try since i cannot
stop reading hers

so here i am
on the floor
mike on the bed playin some game
a gambling game online
thank god
its not for real money
cause lord
knows
we dont have any of that

and his toes are wiggling
as he smiles
"i just won baby" he says
beaming
"i just won"

i got a package from mom and dad
today
with marlboro cigarettes..
my favourite along with
my longtime and always faithful friend
du maurier
and a talking picture frame
of mom and dad
wishing me a merry christmas
and sending their love
and my heart
broke
into a thousand pieces

but i guess
were all just tryin to pick up
the pieces
and mend them
and shape them
and dust them off
and make them whole again

here i sit
on the floor
a basket of clothes waiting to be folded
thankful we have a hundred
outfits
i suppose
but i hate to wash it
hate to fold it
and thankful for food
but i hate to cook it
and
clean it

is it possible to hate
and to thank
at the same time

here i sit
on the dirty carpet
thats waiting to be replaced
(or is that me waiting?)

here is what i know now
here is what i know now
here is what i know

we won baby
he said to me
we won
we won

we have clothes
and food
and though its ruined from a flood, carpet on
the floor of
our apartment
we've got no money
and im away from my family
but we've got love
and hes got talent

a talent at making me smile
even when im crying

so i guess we do win
money
or no money

thank god for that
we win

pezzyann was fooled on 2:27 a.m..

so today was the big day. I met Rez Goudy. lol is that how you spell his last name?
anyway i got in line for an hour and half, went up got my pic taken. he kinda cute. nice smile.perfect teeth.
i bet he bleeches them.

I was in line and i was surrounded by little girls. and theyre all puttin on their mascara (desperatly needing an eyelash curler) and plumping their lips with shiney lipgloss, wearing the tightest shirts they could buy. it kinda made me miss me. like, back when i was 13 or 14 and my biggest worry was what to wear to school dances.
If you were ever a teenie bopper, you know what im talking about.

I seen the most cracked out girl today.
we was outside (i seen her through the mall window) walking like her hips were dislocated, stick thin legs just buckeling every which way .. long lanky arms up and down and out... he jaw looked out of place.. like it had been broken and grew back wrong.. her eyes were sunken in.
my lord.
I hope the crack made her feel good inside because she was some hard to look at. but thanks to her and about 90% of the other natives here I will never in my life touch crack. I wont have anything to do with people who DO do crack.. Its such an ugly drug that shifts your whole body. my god.

here, sittin on the floor, with my bed (which is just sittin on the floor) i can see cigarette burns on the box spring. (the bed was given to us..) Come on now. how did someone manage to get cigarette burns on the BOXSPRING? what in the heck are they doing?
lol

i only ot 5 hours of sleep last night. - good sleep though.
so maybe ill go take a nap.
maybe ill get a couple more hours of good sleep in.

wishful thinking, i know.
Ive got work at wal mart tomorrow. then im back on evenings for a week for moneystop.
it breaks my heart. I hate working there. just the thought of it.


*its a cold and broken hallelujah*

pezzyann was fooled on 5:42 p.m..

pezzyann was fooled on 5:42 p.m..

Holy crap. december first already. christmas is just around the corner and it is scary scary.
theres a couple of birthdays too, in december that i though id mention.
Tammy. Happy Birthday!
Jennifer: Happy Birthday!
WEOOOOO GOOO

i got a call for an interview today. guardian security. id be working out on site, making 20+ dollars an hour. but its 3 days, 3 nights, 6 days off. 12 hour days plus 2 hrs a day travel. thats too much. i got too much stuff to do here at home (cooking, cleaning, washing) to be away for 14 hrs a day. so. i said no thanks and that was that.

*sigh*

not much else to talk about really. im still really wanting to listen to jann but her music is alsmot IMPOSSIBLE to download. did i spell that right? impossible? i hope so cause i put it in caps. if its spelled wrong AND cap sized, it just looks like im a screaming idiot. haha

hmmm what else?
no one has been updating their blogs lately. the 19th seemed to be a big day. everyone wanted to then. ad after that, its nothing.
come on now, people!
i neeeeed blogs!
something to keep me entertained. haha

hmmm well, i guess thats it for now. maybe i will write more tonight or something. but ive gotta get up to the mall and finish christmas shopping.
oh yeah
sexy rexy is coming to our crappy shitty mall here sunday to sign autographs
hahah
weoo goo

go sexy rexy.
lol
robyn is excited anyway
maybe ill get a couple pics for mom and dad or something.

oh my

pezzyann was fooled on 3:27 p.m..