BeFoRe I LeAvE FoR HeLL!

I dont know why i Give myself 35 minutes to get ready.
Clearly, i only need 15
hah

gone to work
(oh joy, of bliss)

pezzyann was fooled on 7:17 a.m..

and i know that it might be true darlin that the grass always looks greener when youre lookin in somebody elses yard but honey, you got the real thing waiting here at homei swear you did i had a man
he said

"honey.. honey you know that i love you but i gottago find myself you know, i gotta go find my lifei gotta go find myself over in aferica or over in ah, new york city or over in ah, alema. some place those cats are always wondering off too. i never did figure out where it was (haha) always going somewhere man... "

and i said,
"baby dont you realise you look for your life over there honey.. wanna know where your life is?youre lifes waiting like a god damn fool right here
for you man"

and one morning youre gonna wake up in casablanca.. one of those fancy places and honey youre gonna be freezing to death man.. youre gonna wake up and youre gonna say

"GOOD GOOD LORD
GOOD GOOD GOOD LORD
i just wanna find that woman and that great big huge double bed with that great big fur rug on top of it and those satin sheets man what am i doing in casablanca man? i mean really man"

one of these days that cats gonna wake up and say that to himself and when he comes back home there just like the capricorn i am ill be standing there waiting man and say

"baby i knew one day honey i knew knew knew one day that oh! that youd finally come home to me honey when you walked in my front door im gonna be able to tell by the look in your eyes i said

"good god
and man finally i got it lord man and finally realised so you could put your head on my should baby cause i know you got some more tears to share so come on come on come on come onand cry cry baby

pezzyann was fooled on 12:21 a.m..

so.. its wednesday .. im off tonight. and im trying my DAMN hardest not to just go to sleep.
im loving my naps in the evening.
oh well.
not tonigt!
then again, ill just stay in watching friends all night. haha
god damn i miss mike. and just having company.. and going for drives (especially downtown)
him with his coffee, me with my pickeled weiner. (i love them.. ) heh

oh man
im sittin home here tonight, all depressed and shit
listen to janis joplin.. singing my guts out and and apparently spittin all over my screen.
she sounds so husky and beautiful.
i wish i could sing and sound like her.
(i got a lot of smokig and screaming ahead of me for that..)
im also lookin at my old scrap book. man i was one fucked up kid.
i still am.
god.
where has time gone anyway?
i feel like i wanna grab it and just pull it back.
if only i knew then what i know now..

*sigh*

Im sooo glad im off tomorrow
ive got so much to do

pezzyann was fooled on 6:29 p.m..

so its saturday morning.
well, evenining more like.
lord jesus! its 2 in the afternoon

holy smokes.

anyway i slept in till 12:30
and only got up then because mike called. lol
i was havin some messed up dreams too. holy moses.

i just saw an old movie on tbs.. remember the eppisode of the simpsons where homer is carrying marge out of the factory and she puts his hat on and stuff.. it was the closing of this movie! lol
richard gear was in it. he was about 20 years old id say
and mighty fine too
hehe

well, ive accomplished a lot to day

got up
weighed myself - lost 3 more pounds (hah i thoguht i gained. i was afraid..)
made some bran muffins (poopin good tonight)
watched a sad movie
struck a deal
lol
now i gotta go to irving and get some booze

what a busy day! man, im beat
hahah
ohhhhh dave might be coming over tonight!
if he do ill die! haha i love it when he comes over!
and tuesday is hes birthday so im going to make him some very interesting muffins. haha
im such a loser. i cantt wait
amy said she might be coming over too!
that'd be soooooo fun!

well, i guess i should go and get dressed. haha
my comp is messin up again.
(huge surprise there!)
maybe is IS cause i type to fast.

ohh i hope they show up tonight! that would be so fun i could use a good drunk. - again. haha

man i need a new cd player alarm clock.; one that actually plays burnt fuckin cds.
this one drives me

pezzyann was fooled on 1:54 p.m..

Well, for halloween they had a box of mini bars on sale at sobeys. so i bought a box. and got wicked addicted to them.
i dont even like chocolate that much! it hurts my teeth

but anyways
so ive been eatin mini bars like theire going out of style.
watching oprah the other day with kerstie alley (spelled wrong) and they were showing before and after pics and shit
and so im sittin here like, "man, she was fat!"

*stuffs mini bar in my mouth*

"oh man, she had a huge ass!"

*mmm another bar*

"oh man, she was big.."

*throwing wrappers on the floor. .. cant get wappers off fast enough, so i eat some*

"oh man, man you could lay a coffee table on her ass"

then i was like ohmygod..

*looks dramatically at the pile of wrappers on the bed ...*

"im sick!!"

lol
so i put the mini bars away and skipped supper!
LOL
it was the funniest thing. i was like heeeeellll no, i AM kerstie alley. hah
(HOW DO YOU SPELL HER NAME!!?? sheesh..)

anyways, that was my funny oprah story.
not too funny when you read it.
i guess it was a 'you had to be there' moment.

mikey will sooooooon be home!
and mom and dad will soon be here!
and christmas will sooon be here!
i just KNOW this christmas will be perfect!
a real tree.. im going to get some pickled wieners! haha
and booze.. OH the booze lol
i cant wait

pezzyann was fooled on 10:28 p.m..

So i havent updated in a long time. well here i am
nothing new at all to report. just working, as always. everymorning the alarm goes off and i saiy, ohhhh noo!! haha
and then i lay there for a minute wondering if its even worth it.
if it werent for christmas, im sure id be quit!

Mike will be home in a little while! i can NOT wait. i am sooooo excited!
oh lord
to sleep with someone again! (and not all by my lonely self..) ohhh, i forget what its even like to kiss someone! i cant wait!
come on down darlin!
(haha)

anyways
enough sap

Ive been hanging out with dustin a bit. hes the funniest person ive even known in my life. the guy is retarted. every time we hang out its just non stop laughing. and over the most stupid things like fartin, shittin, snots and sneezing lol (and miss doubtfire) i know thats spelled wrong hah oh well
anyways the other night we actually got serious for the first time and we were talking about death and what happens after death and all this crappy stuff.. heres some of the convo we had

me: Do you think we used to be monkeys?
him: What? no.. why? hah
me: I dont know. do you ever see someone that really looks like a moneky? and youre like, damn crawl back in the womb you havent even finished evolving.
him: Well, some people looks like a smacked cabbage. doesnt mean they used to be a cabbage though.

well so much for being serious. i giggled for about 10 minutes.
*shakes head*
smaked cabbage. sheesh. so silly.

anyways, theres not much else to report. i havent been doing much.
i got lots of my christmas shopping done. im off tomorrow (thank the good lord above!) so im gonna do some more shopping.

thats it for now i guess.
i got a funny story ill tell tomorrow about me watching oprah.
haha
stay tuned



*if i could tell the world just one thing it would be that we're all okay. And not to worry cause worry is wasteful and useless in times like these.*

pezzyann was fooled on 8:07 p.m..