It's late enough all you kids should be home
The policeman says as he takes your beer for his ownY
ou remember wondering what his wife
Thought about his occupation
He knows that you were just chasing a dream
To the town line and then back and over again
So he winks at you girls
And tells you all "i'll see you later"

I was stealing kisses from a boy
Now i'm begging affection from a man
In my housedress don't know you who i am
Standing in your kitchen

It's late enough your husband's dinner is cold
So you wrap it up and leave it for him on the stove
It's probably the traffic again
Or another important meeting
And you haven't talked to an adult all day
'cept your neighbor who drives you crazy
When he finally gets in he's sure not in the mood for talking

And hours become days and days become years
And you could burn down this town
If they made matches from fear
Buy you're no worse off than anybody else
Hey don't you even know, don't you even know yourself
So you're standing outside your high school door
The one you walked out of twenty years before
And you whisper to all of the girls, run, run, run

I was stealing kisses from a boy
Now i'm begging affection from a man
In my housedress don't you know who i am
Take a look at who i am, i'm stealing kisses

pezzyann was fooled on 9:00 p.m..

I do it for the validation
because he tells me im beautiful
but habbit
perhaps
takes over meaning

maybe he means it
but one
out of
one hundred thousand
doesnt seem to cut it
anymore

for me

and so for the validation
I let him
invited it
asked
begged
I let it

an excuseable mess
for I
was just wanting
waiting
wearing signs
that
I
needed the proof

to hear it from someone
else
to hear it from you

validate





VALIDATE
verd
1. to make valid; substantiate; confirm
2. to give legal force to; legalize.
3. to give official sanction, confirmation, or approval to

pezzyann was fooled on 12:49 p.m..

So live your life that the fear of death
can never enter your heart.
Trouble no one about their religion.
respect others in their view and demand
that they respect yours.
Love your life .. perfect your life .. beautify all things in your life.
Seek to make your life long and its purpose
in the service of your people.
Prepare a noble death song for the day
when you go over the great divide.
Always give a word or a sign of salute
when meeting or passing a friend...
even a stranger, when in a lonely place.
Show respect to all people and grovel to none.
When you arise in the morning give thanks
for the food and for the joy of living.
If you see no reason for giving thanks,
the fault lies only in yourself.
Abuse no one and no thing,
for abuse turns the wise ones to fools
and robs the spirit of its vision.
When it comes your time to die,
be not like those whose hearts are filled
with the fear of death,
so that when their time comes they weep
and pray for a little more time to live their lives
over again in a different way.

Sing your death song
and die like a hero
going home.

Chief Tecumseh
(Crouching Tiger)
Shawnee Nation 1768-1813

pezzyann was fooled on 9:02 p.m..

So i found this site where you can watch all these movies. Its awsome. Only no one can figure out how to work it at home. it only seems to work here on this work computer.
anyway
first movie i looked for was Now and Then. And what do ya know.. lol it was there!
Oh my god, my girl Rosie is in it. and Devon Sawa. hahah oh man. sittin back watchin it made me feel like i was 13 again. oh lord. what a time i had watching it.
And i saw Little Miss Sunshine.
the movie is so funny.
this family it totally disfunctional. the little girl seems like the only real one there.
and theyre poor ol van. they gotta push it, then run and jump in cause the clutch is gone. then their grandfather dies, so they steal him from the hospital and takes him along.
or lordy
so funny. some parts were really serious though. so it kinda mixed it up a little. that little girl is so cute. i recommend to everyone! too cute. lol

I l o v e l o v e l o v e l o v e l o v e l o v e it

not a whole lot more is new.
time is ticking by faster and faster and before i know it, ill be boarding the plane back home.
still so nervous about the whole move.
i know when i get home, it will be like, did the last year even happen?? im sure none of this will seem real. I swear sometimes i think one day i gonna wake up and i will be 15 and the last 7 years will have been nothing but a big long dream. and now i get to relive it all over again.
I wonder if i would change anything. or nothing at all...

Ive had the flu now for days. this freekin nagging cough that will not go away. Its driving me nuts.

Mitz (the landlady) found 2 homeless natives bumpin uglies in our porch. the little one.. like, the main door where you walk in and then you buzz to get into the building.
lol
she said talk about me going with the javex.

hhahaha

gross. loves this town.

pezzyann was fooled on 1:25 p.m..

pezzyann was fooled on 9:53 p.m..

**and baby if i could make something of this.. why wouldnt i?**



I dont really have a whole lot to talk about
big surprise there
ive been off for 2 days and have done nothing but lie around in bed
its nice.
i did some laundry today and checked the mail.
go me.

I got my ticket for home. sweet jesus. im excited and nervous all at once. this has been my home for more then a year. a big messy unfortunate drunk home. but still, a home nonetheless.
i dont know what im going to do with all our stuff and its sad knowing that everything i worked so hard for is just going to be left behind.
i started from the ground up, you know. here with nothing. milk crates for couches and carboard boxes for tables. and now we have so much stuff that i dont know where to put everything.
and now, to just leave it all. its kinda sad. there were some things i really wanted to hold on to. like my coffee table. i know that sounds silly. but it was garbage and then i turned it into something really beautiful and i like that. our plain wooden dresser with the mirror. i think it would look nice in a living room. especially for what i have in mind for our living room style. and the futon. damnit. i wanna take that home!
GRRRRR
its just too bad. i wish i had more time. i wish i had more money. if i were "wealthy" id ship the whole deal home! shag buyin all new stuff. i like this stuff.

mike just got home and got some big heavy duity garbage bags. the kind that the 3 of us can get on. lol sliding tonight, bys!

Well i guess thats all for now. mike is callin out and his supper is alsmot ready.

Im comin.. Im comin home to you. Im alive... Im a mess. I cant wait to get home to you. to get warm .. warm and undressed.






Wont you let me get some sleep
wont you let me get some sleep tonight

its late now and theres one 4 hours till
i get up again
you know id wait somehow if i thought this was something a little
time could end
you
youre draggin this missery on
lets leave this thing for a while
its too far gone
to far gone

dont get your back up off of this
if im so wrong and youre so right
you really got your mind made up i guess
wont you let me get some sleep
wont you let me get some sleep
tonight

pezzyann was fooled on 9:34 p.m..

okay
oh my god
lets talk about news years. I hope you all get a fine laugh.

So new years. i had this fab dress. very nice. but i looked a little... shall i say.. lumpy in it. so i though, ha, ill get me spandex suit now and fix that
so i did
and i was lookin pretty hot too hey
it like went down almost to my knee, up under my boobs
woo hoo a whole size smaller

anyway went out to the bar me mike and robyn, had a great time. then after me and robyn went to nakitas cause she was havin a party. so we went. nothing but guys. and im not kidding. it was me robyn nikita and about 20 guys. lol
so we were having a fine ol time, i was drunk as a skunk.

so the night went on and i was standing in the kitchen (everyone was.. i dont know why) drinking away, kitchen full of guys and i fell. for no reason other then my legs didnt want to stand anymore.
so i went down, dress went up, legs went up and out and open and SPANDEX EVERYWHERE. LOL
my lord.
it was bad.
i sat on the floor, knowing everyone saw my not so sexy spandex suit. i sat there and was like fuck. fuck. fuck. shit. fuck mother fuck fucker fuck fuck.

hahah

fuck.

i sat there and was like i just fell
i just fuckin fell on the kitchen floor.
lol
i was so embarrassed i left the party.


it was such a sin.
couldnt be a kitchen full of girls. it was dickapaloosa. a big dick buffet and i went down right in the middle of it.

*sigh*

i am such a clutz. haha

and i got this HUGE bruise on the back of my thigh. big and dark black. i was like WTF where did that come from
haha
who knows.

happy new year me.
happy spandex suit to all of you.
lol

cripes

pezzyann was fooled on 9:38 p.m..