its like 3:20 am. im trying to stay awake. i go to the airport in an hour. no use in one hours sleep. so i went in and lay with mike, whos been insane sick for the last couple days. fever of 103.. and i wanted to stay there and just lay next to him and breathe him in and listen to his little snores... but then it felt like i was waiting to leave him
so i got up
got dressed
and here i am. sittin on the couch, writing.

he will be leaving for AB when i leave.

mother fucker.

i was at the airport tonight to pick up my girlfriend from fort mcmurray and these 2 little kids and their mom was sitin on the floor watchin everyone walk down the stairs, they were callin out, "daddy..." and then he came
and picked them up in his big arms and gave them a hug so tight that i swear i could feel it myself
and they just said daddy daddy over and over again and smiled the biggest smiles i have ever seen. those 2 little babies...
families do this all the time.
but not my family.
it hurts big time.

http://youtube.com/watch?v=5KFQbZMO7fg

everyone, go to that link.
amazing.

im so excited about going to NB. but nervous. and i dont want to come back alone. maybe alone would be good for me, though.. but i dont think so. its totally bitter sweet, i guess.




He loves me
He loves me
toes in mine
a forehead kiss

what is
what is all of this

a broken heart
i fell apart

thinking of you
of you

and i
dont
think

i can make it through

what is this
a broken heart

pezzyann was fooled on 3:17 a.m..

so robyn has requested that while i am in the bathroom, i should write in my blog.
somehow me writing while i poop just makes for a funny blog.
so here i am.
i dont have much to write about, unfortunatly. and im almost done. so i better think of something quick!

hmmm... nope. nothing.

my nails are growin like something sick. so im going to have to get them filled again. a lot sooner then usual, so im told. not that i know much about nails..

man, i could go for a cup of tea and toast. hahaha (god love morgan)

theres really not much more to talk about. weve already discussed how i got retarted drunk last night. been there, done that. peed outside. with cara. lol knows i fell back when i peed and couldnt get my chubby arse up and she had to help me haha
well, we were only pukin outside cause someone puked and clogged the toilet.
dont know what he ate for supper.
must not have chewed either.
yuck

pezzyann was fooled on 2:32 p.m..