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Sunday, August 19, 2007

and then he left me...

mike is gone. was he even here? one second i closed my eyes and he is gone again.

gone gone gone gone gone gone gone gone

again.

fuck.

sometimes i swear i dont think he was really here. sometimes i think i may have been sleepin the whole time, dreamin and now ive just woken up and i am alone again. sometimes i cant feel my heart beating and i wonder if any of this is even real.

sometimes i think maybe IM gone

gone

was i even there?

pezzyann was fooled on 5:44 p.m..

Saturday, August 18, 2007

When theres nothing left to burn you have to set yourself on fire

God that was strange to see you again

Introduced by a friend of a friend

Smiled and said "yes I think weve met before"

In that instant it started to pour,

Captured a taxi despite all the rain

We drove in silence across Pont Champlain

And all of the time you thought I was sad

I was trying to remember your name...

This scar is a fleck on my porcelain skin

Tried to reach deep but you couldnt get in

Now youre outside me

You see all the beauty

Repent all your sin

Its nothing but time and a face that you lose

I chose to feel it and you couldnt choose

Ill write you a postcard

Ill send you the news

From a house down the road from real love...

Live through this, and you wont look back...

Theres one thing I want to say, so I'll be brave

You were what I wanted

I gave what I gave

Im not sorry I met you

Im not sorry its over

Im not sorry theres nothing to save

Im not sorry theres nothing to save...

pezzyann was fooled on 4:50 p.m..

Tuesday, August 07, 2007

light another cigarette and maybe by the end of it you have changed ..

you give me chills

you give me chills ...

mom and dad visiting has been great! im always on the go, it seems. always tidying or cleanin or shopping or going somehwere .. i love it.

its going to be a huge kick in the face when they leave.. then mike leaves. and i am alone. again.

its so much harder being the one thats left...

my summer has been good so far though. been busy. got a nice tan goin on. lost some weight! now if this whole school thing would work out FFS. my God. if im not in school by september ill be goin back to Fort Mac. Thats for sure. i seriously cant even afford to stay here and work. which is sad. but oh my.

hmmm it seems like there is so much to talk about but now that im actually here updating, nothing comes to mind.

i saw you walking

in the city

were all in this together

the city is changing

cause we are changing

were all in this together

every 12 seconds someone remembers

that were all in this together

in the kitchen of your rent controlled apartment

were all in this together

come on baby

i dont mean to rush you

i only wanted to reach out and touch you

i gotta start

to open my heart

and on the subway

we fell like strangers

but were all in this together

yeah i love you and you love her and she loves him but

were all in this together

i saw you cryin

i started cryin

cause were all in tis together

and religion is a big decision

but were all in this together

not really much more to talk about. ill update some more some other time.

happy summer

pezzyann was fooled on 8:52 p.m..